Defining Who I Am & Who I Want To Become

Today was an Indian holiday, so we had no office staff or any drivers. It was a very relaxing day, but we all still managed to have fun. I woke up for our morning meeting, which went well, but in the mornings I do not seem to remember much of what goes on in those meetings, which is ok because they are not really all that important. We just go over basic announcements like where people need to be and such and what goes on during the day. It was a short meeting because we all realized it was a holiday, so we spent our time cleaning things which needed cleaning and making up projects to do. I had it pretty simple because I just worked on my art stuff all day. For lunch we had Ron drive us to the junction just right outside of our village where we all caught a bus to Uthiramerur for parotha. Parotha is always an excitement for me, so I always try to go when I have the chance. One of the great pleasures I have had while being out here is time to myself. I get thinking about life and where I see myself in the future. I have had time to really get to know myself better and appreciate certain aspects of my life I had not before, or not as much as I previously had. Happiness flows within me more frequently and I think part of it is due to having time by myself, but also having that time in an atmosphere where I can succeed to my full potential. The upcoming years are going to be the most pivotal years of my life. School, hopefully marriage, but not too soon, and finding a career that suits me comfortably in something I am passionate about. I am so anxious for these next few years to unfold. I wish I could fast forward time to be in them right now. I really have had better insights to my future and where I want to be in life. Some of those things I listed above are achievements I hope to one day make, and it feels great having some direction in my life being able to focus on important goals I know will one day make me happy. I do not know if time by myself anywhere would have made me realize what I realize now, but I am truly grateful to have had these insights. Life in India has truly brought out a different perspective in my eyes of the person I want to become, but do not fool yourself to think it is just simply living here in India which has made me see this; living here has played a small role in my experiences, but it is far more amazing in what I have accomplished and done so far. The work I am doing day in and day out, the people I have an honor to meet and speak with ranging from volunteers who come to people in the colonies, the opportunities I have where I would not have anywhere else, and time to myself to think about my life, my goals, the person I want to become, and what I want to achieve make up all the wonderful reasons of why living in India has so far changed my life. It is not so much of what I seek to become or what I want to do in the future that makes my life different, but who I have become and who I am slowly becoming. I do not want to fool anyone in believing what I have written, for it is different reading words then actually seeing something in real life. I hope to one day show you all my success, share my motivation in life, which has gotten me through my toughest times, be an example to you all and others, share my inspiration with you all, which I have acquired throughout my life and various events I have had the privilege to participate in, and most importantly to use all I have acquired in changing other people's lives for the better not just mine. There is a quote, which I think defines life perfectly. This same quote shadows over my blog with its intent to grasp readers delineating its theme."Life's splendor forever lies in wait about each one of us in all its fullness, but veiled from view, deep down, invisible, far off. It is there, though, not hostile, not reluctant, not deaf. If you summon it by the right word, by its right name, it will come." Life, which is essential to all of us, can be reached to a degree we want if we seek it out. Sometimes what we want in life does not always turn out to be, or what we expected it to be, but somewhere it waits for each person patiently. Life happens everyday. Life changes fast. Life changes in the instant. How we want our life to be and what we want in our life is only up to us and no one else, which is why I love this quote. I hope my thoughts I have shared can give you all a better meaning of who I am becoming. I love the work I am doing and I love these people with all my heart. I love you and miss you all! I hope each one of can strive to become better like I hope to. Never lose sight at where you are going and always keep your feet moving in the right direction.